A New Adventure

You may have noticed that in my last post I slipped in the fact that we were transitioning our son to online school. It’s an idea that my husband and I have tossed around for a while, but we’ve always ruled in favor of traditional school. Our son has been at a charter school since its first year (1st grade) and we’ve stuck with it in spite of their growing pains.

It’s on its fifth or sixth (I think) head of school; because of location of the buildings, the school’s been on lockdown at least once every school year; and our kiddo has had some issues with bullying. His second grade teacher was awful, and the teachers he had this year proved less than cooperative with Allen’s newer academic issues (finishing and turning in school work in a timely manner).

With all the work I was putting into helping him get school work turned in on time without the support of his teachers, I just decided it would be easier if we tried an online schooling program. We also figured that we would all continue to wonder about it until we tried it. So beginning last month, he started with an accredited online school. For now, I’ll withhold the name of it, since I’m still unsure of how I feel about it.

That’s not to say we don’t still have reservations about schooling him at home. I worry about socialization and his ability to stand up for his beliefs. And I worry about my own sanity. I worry about the health of our relationship, and whether being his “learning coach” will ruin our relationship.

At first, things were very confusing, as the teachers began to adjust his curriculum to fit with his peers and with his academic level. But we muddled through and now have a fairly smooth and regular schedule. Except on days like today when Math took the Kiddo three hours to complete. Yes, you read that right — three (3) hours.

Obviously, my patience has been tested. He’s easily distracted and consistently complains when he has an assignment that involves writing. He’s convinced that he can do math in his head, but gets frustrated every single time he tries it because he gets the wrong answer. Sometimes he aces his assessments and other times he has to retake them because he fails to read the question completely. My husband receives texts at least weekly from me, stating that I can’t do it.

But then I step back and look at the situation with less emotion. And I realize that I have a limited time left with my kid and this is a great opportunity for us to spend time together. And I watch the news to see yet another school shooting where 17 have been killed, and I think that maybe this wasn’t such an insane decision. That maybe, just maybe, my husband and I got it right.

So we will continue to work at it. We’ve committed to staying with the online program through the end of the school year before making a final decision. Maybe we will decide to stick with it as long as I’m able to “coach” him, and maybe we’ll decide to put him back into a public school next school year. But for now, we’re figuring it out and we’re making it work. And the Kiddo and I still like each other.

xoxo

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Planner Girl Part II

As promised, I’m following up with more details on how I use and decorate my planner. Let’s dive right in, and take a look at my monthly page spread:

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This is actually where I begin my planning each month. Every appointment and event gets put here first. This includes school days off, weekend social engagements, and doctor’s appointments. I’m also counting down our family trip to Alaska which is what those little yellow circles are on Tuesday. And the purple heart sticker shows when I have my week off from chemo.

Usually, I include assignments my husband has at our Christian meetings on Thursday evenings and Sundays, but I didn’t do that for some reason here. I don’t have our meetings marked because they are so much a part of my life, I don’t need the reminders and I’m not tracking any aspect of them right now. But if I wanted to track my attendance or participation, I would probably add them back to my calendar.

You’ll see that I have included stickers where I could. The month will look much different by the end of the month when all my appointments are filled in. I try to make this spread as attractive as I can, but I’m not too concerned with stickers being all matchy-matchy.

Some other things I could/plan on including in my monthly spread are:

  • When to change my contacts
  • When to go to the gym (I know that sounds hilarious coming from me, but I’m really going to make an effort this year)
  • When my family has appointments. Kiddo’s already go on here, but I could add hubs’ too.
  • When I go in the Bible ministry and for how long

Basically, anything you want to track monthly can go on this spread. It’s entirely up to you.

Sometimes, we have tentative plans, but they aren’t set in stone. Me and My Big Ideas (MAMBI) makes the most adorable little post-it notes that are perfect for this. I simply write the information on the little paper and stick in on the appropriate date. I like their little post-its because they are sized just write and they stick really well.

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Every Sunday afternoon, I plan out my weekly schedule. All events that have been recorded in my monthly section get marked in my weekly layout as well. These get written in first. When I can, I use a sticker, of course. I split my days into three different categories: Today, To Go, To Do.

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The “Today” section includes my daily checklist items, such as Bible reading, as well as events that happen that don’t involve leaving the house. For instance, I conduct a Bible study with someone and she comes to my house. So that gets noted in my “Today” section.

“To Go” is fairly obvious. This includes appointments and errands. It’s particularly important for me to write all these things down because I am not driving right now. Having all my errands and appointments written down makes it easier for me to negotiate who can drive me.

Once again, “To Do” is self-explanatory as well. This is my daily to do list. I find this section to be extremely important as well. Spending most of my time at home can get lonely, so when I write down things to accomplish throughout the day, it helps me to feel productive.

You may have noticed from the side-by-side photos I shared in the last post, that my week seems to be front-loaded. That’s because the beginning of my week is when I feel well enough to get things done, while Thursdays and Fridays are my chemo recovery days. Because my week is imbalanced like that, I find it extremely important to write down everything I need to get done during the week. That way I can make sure I get everything accomplished prior to Thursday.

On my sidebar is the meal plan for the week. Hubs does 99% of the cooking here, but he has trouble deciding what to make. So I am trying to help plan out our meals. It’s not going as well as I’d like, so suggestions are welcome. The sidebar is also useful for habit tracker stickers, running to-do lists, and weekly goals.

So that’s how I plan in my Happy Planner. Tell me, what planner do you use, and how do you use it?

xoxo

Planner Girl

I’ve always been a planner. My childhood best friend and I would write out elaborate schedules when she spent the night at my house, detailing when to wake up all the way to when to go to sleep. We loved nothing more than to be able to check off each scheduled event.

As a student in high school, I had a planner in which I documented all my homework and after school and weekend events. The planner I used had stickers in the back (it wasn’t Lisa Frank; I don’t remember the brand), which reignited my childhood love of stickers.

For awhile in the corporate world I used a Franklin Covey planner and even read Seven Habits of Highly Effective People by Stephen R. Covey. I was a total planner geek. But then I left the corporate world for the world of retail and the slower pace of the South, and I left my planner life behind.

Until my life became overwhelming again and I discovered Erin Condren. This planner also came with stickers and opened up the grown up planner world to me. If you type in planner stickers on Etsy, you’ll see what I mean. Same thing if you search Instagram for #planner. There is a huge community out there.

Erin Condren planners are beautiful and wonderful. You can choose a customized and personalized cover, and even order personalized stickers from them. They have fabulous high-quality stickers that you can purchase separately from the ones that come bound in the planner, plus an array of other accessories from pens to note cards. They offer three different layouts, too. It’s a planner’s dream, really. But for me, now being unemployed, it’s a little pricey.

That’s why I purchased The Happy Planner from Me and My Big Ideas (MAMBI) to use as my planner this year. While still using my Erin Condren planner, I discovered stickers from (MAMBI) that I fell in love with, so when shopping for this year’s planner, it was kind of a no-brainer.

If you happened to click on the Instagram link and scroll through some of the planner pictures, you may have discovered that planner decorating is a HUGE trend right now. And decorating styles vary greatly. Some prefer a minimalistic approach, while others cover their entire weekly spreads with stickers. Some people work with multiple planners for different aspects of their lives. For others, their planner is used almost as a scrapbook or memory keeper.

As for me, I need my planner to make sure I get where I’m supposed to be and do what I’m supposed to do. Between an already bad memory and chemo, unless I’ve written it down, I have no idea what I’m supposed to be doing. I prefer to use one planner for all aspects of my life, rather than splitting my life into categories; however as I transition my son to online schooling, I may be adding a school planner as well.

Since my planner is kind of my life line as to where to go and what to do, functionality comes before beauty. While I love (big puffy heart love) stickers and washi tape, these must also serve a purpose in my planner other than being adorable. Therefore, I am not much of a “before the pen” decorator, meaning I don’t decorate my planner prior to filling it in with my appointments and to-dos.

Here’s an example of what my weekly page spread typically looks like:

As you can see above, I do utilize stickers, but my pages are not covered with them.

In my next post, I’ll explain how I divide my planner (see those three different sections up there), what I include in my planner, and how I use my monthly page spread.

Stay tuned!

xoxo

Here

I’ve known her since I was six years old, and she was three. We’ve been friends since we met. It was really by default — our parents were best friends; our siblings were the same age and shared a mutual disdain for us, so we became quick comrades. Our parents gave us the same toys to play with (like dolls and prestidigitation (not magic!) sets) and enrolled us in similar extra curricular activities (like dance classes). For about three years — until our family moved to Florida — we were inseparable.

She and I went to Italy together when I was 22 — a trip we will never forget — and she was in my wedding a year later. Now we’re practically related; my sister married her brother. As with many adult friendships, ours has not included frequent visits over the years I’ve been married, but we’ve been there for each other during the important milestones in life.

During my first fight with breast cancer, my sweet friend sent me care packages from Sephora — if you’ve been following my blog long enough, she’s the friend who sent me eye shadows and mascara and lipstick and masks and nail polish — gifts that allowed me the distraction of doing my makeup and dressing up my face and making me feel feminine during my battle.

When my friend’s mom got sick she helped care for her over four long years while her mother continued to deteriorate. Her mother became a shadow of her former self and it was heart-breaking to watch her go from such a lively and vivacious person to one who barely spoke or smiled. I can only imagine how difficult it was for her family to watch it first-hand.

This friend is a self-acknowledged introvert. We don’t speak about feelings or emotions — she keeps those parts of her deep inside her mind. But she has shown me her feelings and emotions through her actions — from being the ideal bridesmaid (smile and do what the bridezilla says) to sending me Sephora care packages to most recently coming to visit me.

If you remember, I’d met with a surgeon in September who was going to perform a DIEP FLAP reconstructive surgery for me. I encourage you to Google it if you want details of the surgery, but the short version is that the surgeon takes the fat from your abdomen and forms breasts out of it. Long-term results are great, but the recovery is intense and difficult. I was scheduled to have the surgery around Thanksgiving, so my sister was going to stay with me immediately after, and my dear friend was going to follow behind to continue to aid me in my recovery.

The fact that I got sick again and that the surgery was cancelled did not mean that she could not still visit, so she went forward with her plans to come see me anyway. She arrived last Sunday.

I have a confession: I was nervous about her visit. I have not had anyone other than my immediate family around me during my chemo “aftermath” — that is the time after chemo when I crash, sleeping almost constantly while experiencing flu-like symptoms. I wasn’t sure what to do with my friend when I got like this. And she would be here for the entire time I would feel this way.

What I forgot is that my friend — being an introvert — likes the quiet. She also had experience with caring for someone who was ill. I had nothing to be worried about. She didn’t seem to mind at all.

She left this morning, and I’ve been thinking about her visit ever since. Initially I was concerned over whether or not she enjoyed her stay — she can be a little difficult to read. But as I thought more about it I realized that all indications pointed to a successful visit.

We bonded over Pitch Perfect and binge-watched some shows on Netflix that we really enjoyed. She seemed to enjoy the companionable silence as we each read on our tablets. We laughed together — a lot. She loved our dogs and seems to have decided she’ll look for one of her own to adopt. She hugged me tightly when we said goodbye at the airport.

With this friend, I discovered, I just have to pay attention. Watch her face while she’s watching a movie or petting my dogs. Listen when she speaks. Recognize that silence isn’t always a bad thing. And give thought to what her kind gestures really mean. Doing that made this image pop into my head.

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I love this illustration. It’s so matter-of-fact. There is no elaborate explanation or ceremony. No big presentation. Just the word “here” as she hands over her heart. That is my friend and I’m so grateful to be a recipient.

xoxo

End of an Era

I’m usually the one with all the words. This time, Mama wanted them to share this news. She’s done it beautifully, so I will leave it to her:

We’ve loved these days…

Many of you, our dear customers and friends, know that the younger partner in our mother daughter partnership was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2015. Some of you know that the cancer has returned. Unfortunately, Allegra will be in treatment for quite a while and the treatment is no picnic.

The older partner in this arrangement wants to be able to drop everything at a moment’s notice to be available for Allegra. All of the mothers who read this will understand. It is for this reason that we have decided to close our shop, Joli Home Accents.

To paraphrase an old Billy Joel song, we’ve loved these days. We have loved being a part of our charming Bay Street shopping district. We have loved our fellow business owners. We have especially loved you, our customers. You have made Joli a joy to own and we thank you from the bottom of our hearts.

Joli’s last day of operation in 2017 will be Saturday December 23. We will reopen for a five day clearance sale in January. Please check our Facebook page and Eat Sleep Play Beaufort for dates and further information.

Again we want to thank you all for your loyalty and patronage. It has been a privilege and “We’ve loved these days”.

Cheryl and Allegra, The Shopgirls

Good Day, Sunshine

I got the results of my biopsy today. For those of you just tuning in, I have been having some pain in my groin and it was determined that the lymph nodes there were swollen and enlarged. It appeared that the cancer had spread to them; however to make sure, I got a biopsy of the nodes.

They’re NOT cancerous!

Can you believe it?! Everyone was happily surprised (cue the above song in my head). It had really seemed as though the biopsy was a formality and that they must be cancerous, but they’re not!

So what does this mean?

A few things:

  1. The cancer has not spread. I already have the mass in my pancreas and significant lymph node involvement. These have responded dramatically to the chemotherapy. If the lymph nodes in my groin had turned out to be cancer, then the chemo drug I’m on wouldn’t have worked as well as we thought, and we would have to worry about continuous spreading of the disease.
  2. I don’t have to alter or add anything to my chemotherapy regimen. Since they’re not cancer, it means that my chemo drug IS working as well as we want it to, and I don’t need to change a thing about my routine. Adding another chemotherapy drug could have meant additional side effects like losing my hair, lower blood counts, more pain, etc.
  3. I get to stay in my chemo routine. I mentioned this above, but to explain in more detail, we chemo patients learn our routines once we get into a chemo regimen. We learn what days are good, what days are bad, and what side effects to expect. If a new chemo drug is added, it’s like starting over again. We have new good and bad days to adjust to and new side effects to learn and to navigate. Being able to stay in my current routine is much easier on me.
  4. Going forward, I will continue the Gemzar (chemo drug) schedule — three weeks on, one week off. Scans (PET and CT) will be every three months. This will continue until a) the Gemzar stops working, or b) the Gemzar becomes toxic to my body. The end date of this chemo cannot be predicted; we just watch and see what happens.
  5. As far as what caused the lymph nodes to be painful and swollen, we don’t know. And quite honestly, we don’t care because it’s NOT CANCER.

But God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear, but along with the temptation he will also make the way out so that you may be able to endure it.

1 Corinthians 10:13 (NWT)

I am so grateful that God knows our limitations and provides us with what we need to endure different trials. I’m so thankful for this news. It feels like someone just added more time to my timer — took one big spin backwards on the dial.

This is the most optimistic I’ve felt since my re-diagnosis. It’s the first time I’ve breathed a sigh of relief, that I’ve thought of my expiration date as possibly being years away instead of months away. Researching and planning our big trip in June fills me with excitement instead of trepidation.

Today is a Good Day, Sunshine.

xoxo

Newsy Post: Scan Results

I saw my Oncologist this morning for my scan results. As you know, I’ve been nervous, especially because I’ve been experiencing a new pain in my groin area, where there are lymph nodes.

The bad news is that it does look like the lymph nodes in my groin are cancerous. We will confirm with a biopsy (waiting for it to be scheduled). In case it is simply an infection, I will start antibiotics tomorrow. If it is cancerous, there are chemotherapies that can target it that can be added to my regimen.

The good news is that the tumor in my pancreas and the surrounding lymph nodes are responding beautifully. In fact, my oncologist said they are “dramatically better.” I cannot tell you the sense of relief I feel at this news. I am so happy about this, and I feel “cautiously optimistic” for the first time in this journey.

Today my family, friends, and I are celebrating this small victory.

Also today, we mourn the loss of our sweet friend and fellow cancer fighter. She fought hard against cancer for around the last two years. She maintained amazing strength, faith, and optimism throughout her journey. We are thinking of her family — husband, daughters, sisters (brothers?), parents, nieces, nephews, aunts, cousins, and more. She will be so missed, but we know that we will see her again soon!

xoxo